Imagine – you’re walking along a lush country lane, everything is perfect. The leaves on the trees are green, the sun beams a warming smile on you and rolling hills of fields flow into the distance. It’s heaven. But then, just as you are floating in happiness, a great problem is thrust upon you – you come to a fork in the path. One way leads to a land of luxuriousness and the best quality of life. Nothing could possibly go wrong. The other way, is your old friends whom you loved and admired. They bring you back old memories that make you smile outside as well as in. Which way?
The answer may seem simple – to you at least – but it’s a completely different story for me. It’s all very well taking the first path which takes you to the land of your dreams, but what about your old friends, whom you will never ever see again? Friendship is a very strong thing indeed – perhaps even stronger than love. But, if you go back to your old friends, then you’re in for a ride. You still continue to talk to them, but another thing crops up: Disagreement. Falling out. Envy. Either way, both paths have their ups and downs, some worse than others, but there’s only one way. You have to make your decision. There and then.
The point I’m getting at is that I am somewhat uncomfortable with the current circumstances. It would be mean and unpleasant to leave you all and to try to forget about you, just to have a better way of living. That would be selfish. But, on the other hand, I feel left out of the group. An oddball. I feel that I’m being put down, ignored, over-looked. Forgive me if I’m being fantastical, but that’s how I feel.
Another scenario: You are in a very dark place. You can’t see a thing, apart from the eternal blackness. You don’t know how big or how small this place is. It could be another planet for all you know. You stand up, slowly. You make your way forward and you hit something. You get pushed violently backwards into another one. You get pushed again – to the right. You hit another one and start to travel in all points of the compass, getting more and more disorientated by the second. You are in a bully circle. These ‘things’ you are being pushed into are negative elements that are in this world – anger, sadness, envy, disappointment, hatred and lots more. Each time you hit them you feel them. Badly.
That smiling boy with brown hair and blue glasses is just the outside. Inside, is a completely different matter. It’s a roller-coaster of emotions for me. First, way up high in the sky, feeling the wind rushing past, feeling that nothing could dissolve my happiness. Then, noticing the giant drop right in front and falling down it in sheer terror, right into a small lake. Getting drenched by those evil elements that cunningly escaped from Pandora’s Box that pollute my life. And the worst bit – knowing that life will never be perfect.
The above are all entirely my thoughts and viewpoints. This post was written so that all of you (my friends) know how I feel. If you want to share something with me about this then I would greatly appreciate it if you would comment.
-Eliot
Wow.
That, that’s a pretty deep post, Eliot! =]
I understand how you feel. I feel like this with my real-life friends. They all seem to be really close and I just feel like I’m… the other one. The spare. I’m the one that always hangs around with them, just following them everywhere. Most of the time I’m the butt of their jokes. I’m starting to feel like I don’t belong. We’ve been friends for as long as I can remember, but we’re completely different. I know I need to get some new friends, but I’m too shy to go up and talk to people, and they might not like me even if I do so. But I know, if I ever pluck up the courage and find some new friends, my life would be so much better.
So yeah, I understand what you’re saying. =]
Eliot: Thanks for understanding, Josie. I appreciate your thoughts and comment.
I’m am EXACTLY THE SAME! I try to make new friends, but if I do, I never see them again… I have one friend, who isn’t really a friend, because be BLACKMAILS me to be his friend… It’s preety sad… It’s just… I don’t know how to describe it…
~~oisin1001~~
Eliot: That’s terrible, Oisin!
OMG! Do your parents know that you can write like this? Youare amazing at explaining this, you are amazing at English. Zomg you should make an auetobiography about it and sell it and ud make thousands of £ and you would b rich which would make ur life happy
Eliot: Um, thanks for the compliment but I don’t really have any intentions for making an autobiography, even though it would perhaps but quite interesting. I suppose I am good at explaining my heart out to my friends.
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Eliot: I’m glad that you are thankful for this post!
Yeah bravo!! *claps loudly*
I completely understand this. I am in the current situation. I don’t have any real-life friends. Even if I can relate – people never listen. I was and still am often called mature – almost everyone I know in my life doesn’t understand me. I cannot do physical activity due to a heart problem that I have, everyone will talk about that, but not one person will come and talk to me. I was never “interesting”.
I was always the person who was just sitting there – and always ignored.
Eliot: I’m glad someone I know feels the same way I do!